Too Young to Understand
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Early Exposure
Years of addiction 7 to 10. It feels good. It calms me down. I love having it in my life. I am so intrigued and excited by this. I am too too young to understand what I'm doing. People who are judging you are the same people who consume your products. I think a large part of that is due to social media. Oh my God. Jimmy, look, they drew you. Jimmy, they drew you so well. It looks just like This is all we are looking for. Be brave. Be honest. Be kind.
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The Beginning
This is The 24 years of my addiction to my detriment started when I was really young. My mom used to leave me alone at home sometimes for the entire weekend. And when I was 7, I dug through her stuff out of boredom, and I found an old VHS tape for youngsters watching. VHS tape was a thing in the nineties you would watch movies on. In my case, I found the wrong things on it. And I had no idea it would dominate my life from then on. A 7 year old kid experiencing something so graphic and foreign and yet in total ignorance with no understanding of it, I was really into it. I loved it. My mom wasn't very good to me and I saw this as my outlet to release the abuse I had to go through daily. It was the first coping mechanism I discovered as a kid.
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The Cycle Begins
Not every person's circumstances are the same. And perhaps some people can consume without getting deeply addicted. But for me, my my natural instinct was so strong that even as a kid, I was instantly stimulated and happier watching the wrong things with my innocent eyes. I I can honestly tell you this was the first passion I ever discovered. Now, back then for 3 years, whatever VHS tapes my mom would leave at home were my only way of consuming the wrong things on the weekends. It honestly was mostly the same tape over and over and over again. But even though I was way too young, at least I wasn't exposed to something far out of ordinary. Thanks, ma'am, for your normal taste, I guess. But that ordinary viewing would soon into a daily obsessive search for something more. Hey, you little addict. Say hello to the internet.
Too Addicted to See the Problem
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The Spiral
Years of addiction 11 to 19. I am a teenager now and I'm way too deep into this. I can't stop spiraling. I tried so many times, but nothing helped. And every day, I dig deeper into desires I never even knew existed within me. It gets harder and harder to stop you even for the day. Got this new anime plot. Basically, there's this high school girl, except she's got huge I need some serious honkers. A real set of bonkers.
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Normalization
See, when the wrong things are in your life on a daily basis like I am confident they were and are in the case of Chris Tyson and quite possibly in the younger life of Jimmy. I don't know how he is nowadays. One step at a time you normalize this to the point where now you don't even see anything wrong with putting it on a wall and live streaming it to the world. Your perversion is more invisible the longer you live with it. It becomes your blind spot.
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Identity and Moral Dilemma
It's so normalized that you start making it your whole identity, just as Chris Ava did. I mean, this might be a controversial statement, but some people transition genders because of a kink. And I wouldn't be surprised if that's the case with Chris. Again, I mean, no disrespect, but he even said it himself in one of the chats that he wishes he could just flip genders with ease. To most people, it would be absolutely insane to write the things Chris wrote in that discord chat with underage kids that all of you probably have seen by now. But to someone who is deep in that dark world, this no longer stands as a moral dilemma. This is normal. And when abnormal becomes normal, people lose their sense of direction. That is exactly why you will hear mister b say something like this in the past. Leslie, you wanna put your dinner?
